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Giving up is Easy?

Giving up is Easy?

Yesterday I finished a rather remarkable episode from the anime Re:Zero. I don’t need to explain the detail what is the anime about but here’s what you need to see in this scene. The blue haired girls is “Rem” and the Black haired boy is “Subaru”

Rem : If we take our time and consider things calmly, maybe we’ll find a different answer.

Subaru: Ive already agonized over this. I’ve thought about it. I’ve suffered. That’s why I gave up.

Rem : It’s easy to give up, but…

Subaru: It’s easy to give up? Don’t give me that, there’s nothing easy about giving up!

Subaru: You think I’m just doing nothing, thinking about nothing, cutting myself from everything, and throwing everything away, and that’s all it took to give up?!

Subaru: It was not easy to give up! It was much easier for me to think there was something I could do. But there’s nothing I can do, there’s no way out, the only path everything leads to is giving up.

Subaru: If I could do something… I would… I would…

Rem: Subaru-kun, it is easy to give up. But it doesn’t suit you. I dont know what painful things youve been through or what youve done to make you suffer as much. And I know what it would be wrong of me to thoughtlessly say I understand. But even so. There is something that I do know. I know that youre someone who cant give up on something halfway through. I know that you’re someone who can’t give up on the future.

Subaru: You’re wrong, I’m not that kind of–

Rem: Im not wrong, you havent given up on anyone.

My Impression

The reason why this dialogue struck me so strong because I feel a huge relation to it and the concept that I’m really in love about it.

The dialogue may seem relatable for a lot of people as I believe there must be a lot people or at least there’s more people that at one point gave up than the people who never considered about giving up.

Subaru: Ive already agonized over this. I’ve thought about it. I’ve suffered. That’s why I gave up.

The context for agonizing and suffering is as subjective as they come, if I were to try to describe it as to having to experience living way above the pain threshold that one regularly experience. To the point that everything feels numb and pointless.

Subaru: There’s no way out, he only path everything leads to is giving up.

In context of desperation, I think it’s more common that not to feel that every effort that we made will eventualy go to waste based on our past failures. It aches way too hard to the point of it’s illogical to think a way out from our desperate lives. Nothing feels extraordinary, shallow, and superficial. This part of desperation beats you to death. It clings in your every day life to some extent ruining your relationships with other people.

Subaru: If I could do something… I would… I would…

The fallacy of you couldn’t do anything. The mental barrier of it things will eventually shreds to pieces and go to waste anyway, regardless of giving an effort.

It shrinks your hope to the point that you could barely see if there’s any left.

The hope that you believe one day it will become the thing that you are going to be most well known for

After interviewing some friends, I beleive that everyone has their own utopia. The one thing that everyone wishes to be in the level of. I’m not sure if it’s really an illusion or something but for sure I haven’t met anyone that claimed to be in “their utopia”, I guess that’s what makes them who they are. They always raise the bar for themselves but carrying one step at a time that it at least be able to accomplished. For me is to think what I’m being able to present in a day range that has contribution for “my utopia” in a year range.

Rem: There is something that I do know. I know that youre someone who cant give up on something halfway through. I know that you’re someone who can’t give up on the future.

In this context, “halfway through” seems relatively objective. Not a literal half but you’re already on your way towards something that you believe is the greater good for you in the future, it could be only 20% done or even 10%. The point is that you’ve done something.

Context of Giving Up

Here’s where I think things really hits home. The same idea that I have deliberately explain on the 2020 article

For me personally, it’s introducing the concept of–

Rem: Im not wrong, you havent given up on anyone.

Not giving up on anyone.

Between giving up on yourself and giving up on anyone is a huge different in my opinion. Giving up on yourself feels like you’re letting yourself down, while giving up on somebody else means that you are letting another people down, which feels way way way more heavier.

It also feels more harder to give up when you think about it that you do something out of something other than your own sake.

It could be as imaginary as it come. For example, it could be because by pursuing A you can help B, where B could be a group of people that you have not fully interact with but you have researched that B does indeed needs you to make A. It’s a beautiful and lovely concept, to do something for someone else’s sake, not for yourself.

It makes live more adventerous and exciting, because you get to live another day, smilling, knowing that you are doing something that someone will gain the benefit out of your effort and hardwork. The most miniscule of effort will not go to waste, especially when you know that there’s someone smilling to see you try.

Giving up will seem so far away from the equation.

I hope that you never give up on your dreams.